Skewed Reality in Dreams

The mall was a circle, in the middle of delaware, filled with leather shops and silk fabrics. I was out of my league and I knew it, but for some reason my dad wanted to take me here. After a few minutes I found out why. There was mom, with my brother, who I hadn't seen since her surprise get away 2 months ago thats lasted until now.

I was living on my own, so my mothers abscence was no different than her living at home to me. Whenever I called home only one of my parents were ever home at a time so there was hardly a passing of the phone. The only reminder was the delaware area code versus the new jersey, but with cell phones replacing names for numbers I barely noticed.

It seems my dad did. He beleives he was blindsided. One day he came home and her car was gone and a note was left on the counter, gone to delaware, be back soon. Soon became next week, and then she got a job down there, teaching music to 5 yr olds at the brand new school down there.

As we walk through the mall my dad seems over joyous, over happy to be here. His smile is larger than ever seeing my mother, whose smile was not so large. My brother was down there visiting schools (the guise under which my mom left in the first place) and was coming home with us (the guise under which my dad arrived). Before this fateful trip my dad convinced me I wanted to see my mother and that I should go, although I felt more like he wanted someone by his side when he met the eyes of a woman who left him with an entire house to fill by himself.

I agreed for 3 reasons. 1, I felt for my dad and 2, my boyfriend was coming with me, 3rd I wanted to buy shoes. My mother tore me away to stalk the aisles of every expensive store for just that reason, to only find shoes way over budget and in every style that I didn't want. The last pair of shoes were at the bargain price of 75 dollars. Not worth it.

And then I woke up.

The World is Spinning

Friends are like stapler removers, only work with a lot of effort. Happens to be I hate stapler removers, too much effort. So yeah, friends be gone. I should sell that somehow. I think I would make a wonderful infomercial host.

When a friends betrays your trust your gut spills over. Its fun. Funner, and yes I use that word, funner is totally making him own up to it. Way back when in the time that land forgot I would have somehow beleived it my fault. And now I know.

Friend of Foe

Loggin onto friendster always makes me laugh out loud. First of all, I don't even call my friends, let alone pay attention to what they post or write on a little website of tiny pictures, nor do care how many friends I have, unlike friendster that notifies you when you have added another tiny picture to your collection.

The reason it makes me laugh out loud is the sudden rush I get when I find someone from my past and I am just way cooler than they are, by far. I wish I knew I was this awesome before, I could have done something about it. Being awesome, is well, awesome, prooving it by finding the most retarded picture of a high school buddy is priceless. I guess people never change. Thank god Adam created a computer generated picture of myself with huge boobs and a tan. Make me look awesome. Again, I am all that is awesome.

If I could post that picture here I would. Too bad my computer skills are not awesome. Good thing coolness isnt based on that. Good thing.

Repeat, Repeat, Repeat

So I noticed that in a lot of blogs, and in my life, things repeat. I'm tired. I hate my job. Blah blah blah.

So

In todays top story Liz has received a suede love seat that she is proudly taking home for free that will fit nicely in her studio apartment. In other breaking news Norkin, Liz's old college friend, the Liz with the new couch, will be coming over to sit on said couch and watch Last Comic Standing. Norkin, a source of Liz's perpetual singleness for most of college due to her blinders and carrot fed by Norkin, has never seen the show and will be chilling while boyfriend works late and deprives her of boy time.

As a side note, Liz with new suede soft couch which was given to her by her boss who is getting rid of things from his divorce, woke up to see her stuffed monkey astronaut asleep next to her head and it gave her a start. Not one to sleep with bears and dolls since those damn chucky movies Liz awoke to find that yes her head was still attatched to her body and no the monkey was not out to get her, all thanks to her Boyfriend who thought it would be cute.

Yeah, this format is lame. I lose.

Sleepin' on the Job

It's 4:30pm. I get off work at 7pm. I have slept with my eyes open for the past 2 hrs and am desperatly trying to pry them open so maybe the rest of the time can go faster.


crank......crank......crank.......crank.........c....r...a...n..k.......

My stomach has been upset for the past month where in which food and throwing up are the only solutions. Am I turing bulimic for no good reason than food is gross! Yes, when did this happen? Probably today.

This Blows

Adam has found out his time slot for his new job. 6pm - 3am M-F. I will never see him during the week. Ever. Wont even be able to talk to him.

Lately I've felt like digging a hole and never coming out of it, and possibly dragging him in with me to cuddle. Is this normal not to like anyone on the planet but him? Maybe degrassi will show some insight for friday night is



DEGRASSI BREAKFAST CLUB

Moving In

Well, my boyfriend is officially moving in to my place come this July 1, but already I'm buying groceries for 2. Driving him around kinda blows but I thank him for the company.

End scene.

Well, I'm back

I'm back from my too short vacation. Vegas = fun if you get drunk and go with your boyfriend. All right. Although never convinced him to get married. When I sobered up I realized he was right, getting married on a pirate ship would be awesome.

Went to Aspen, Co only to turn back round again to go back to work. Bummer.

I saw a political cartoon that states: Hummer Bummer. I think thats what my boyfriend felt like when I passed out in the middle of one. Oops. Still holding on too.

Got home, cleaned, turned my apartment upside down. Now I shall buy a swiffer.

P.S. WORK SUCKS